Insomnia

Sleepless night

It have been a week, my body clock still unable to turn back?

something must be wrong, having a very hard time to sleep these few day

I would lie on my bed for couple of hour till 4 am in the morning than I would dose off.

what's is really going on?

I am really very tired in the day but when night time comes no matter how tired I am 

I just FUCKING get myself to sleep.

depressing....

I really thank you for doing all this,
but you are just not the one,
no how hard you tried my heart is never filled.

Wonderland

You are still in your wonderland,

Talk to my colleague about what I face hope for an advise but in the end I found out that it's just unless.

One of my colleague told me that he tried to explained to her about what is really going on but the conclusion was she can't accept the fact hence she replied this.

" I know, I am just unhappy about it"

Tell me to laugh or to be depress I have this kind of friend/colleague?

I really run out of idea to handle it.

I can only say that if you are unhappy/unconvinced etc. please use your action to prove to other that you are way better than me can? 

Instead of using your mouth to tell story.

I am not afraid to say this, coming to this point. 

having this position in the job, I use my strength to prove to other people that I can do handle it.

there is nothing that is dirty or unable to show to other people. 

sign. 

Thing could have been different, 

if you are able to face it.

It's another cycle

I thought after sometime thing will not happen again
I thought that it's kind of over but NO.

Because of you, I have to really think and make sure you will not be offended before I act or say it out but come to today I think no matter I hard I tried or what way I use you still will have your way to say it out and vent out your unhappiness making the story way beyond what has happen.

I am really very tired of all the crap you create for me.
Why not you tell me what can I do to please you? I have really ran out of ideas.
Because you think within the box end up I am the one being treated unfair?
I am not pay here to please you, I am pay here to work and run my operation smoothly.

spending so much time about say that the position is suppose to be you taking instead of me.
you work the longer than us, yes no matter what we can't change the fact that you work longer than us.
saying the boss is bias against you? Something better please.
your working attitude is not like last time do you know?
1 week only work 1 - 3 days, in these 3 days of working there might be 2 days you will say you cannot make it did not turn out for work.
Please put yourself in boss's shoes if you have a staff who keep on giving excuses for not turning up for work will you put a lot of schedule for the staff please go and thing about keep on ask people to giving you work more days but when your boyfriend or whatever thing called you will just giving all kind of unacceptable excuses not to turn up for work. So? My problem to cause you become like this is it?

With all this thing happen, I choose to ignored tired of all the crap you produce but thank to you I have a new name call snowman? Due to no emotion and action taken.
Thank you from the bottom of my hypothalamus.

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